i can no longer remember the date of when my son got out. but what i remember is i got the call that he was out of iraq. and then nothing . and i mean nothing. not a phone call not a letter not a card nothing for about three months. the family was frantic this silence was killing us all slowly. my son wouldnt talk to anyone but his one sister who was not passing along much of anything to us at all on how he was or nothing. we were all in the dark. totally.
and my mothers heart as tramatised as it was sometimes wondered if i lost him in iraq and just wasnt facing the tune. that is how crazy i was and how crazy this total silent thing he had going was driving me.
three months with out a word how come his sister wouldnt just let us all know what was going on? heck if i know she wasnt my daughter just his sister by his real dad. and communicating with the family seemed to end on her side once he got out.
it was totally aweful
this young man my youngest child and youngest son who swore when he went into the navy that he couldnt wait to get out and come home to all of us suddenly ran the other way. suddenly acted like he hated us or didnt want a thing to do with any of us at all ever again. and it was just killing me
my hubby finally in talking to him once he called convinced him to seek counciling before he got out of the navy it took a few calls before my son would finally seek that help. but he did .
still he wouldnt come home. he moved close to his sister and it took me along time to just put it all to rest and let go finally and say ok its ok and i am glad he has someone to run too even if its not me or his closest sister he grew up with who is my youngest daughter.
its been well past a year now since he got out of the navy and he still hasnt moved home but at least he is living someplace with a purpose in mind. and that is to get some schooling.
he still doesnt talk to his ma much but for me for now that is ok. and he still isnt coming home. he doesnt know why yet but that is the way it is for now.
until he comes home his navy flag... the us flag and the yellow ribbon will hang in my window. and for now with me its all ok ..........
it isnt over yet. by far.
USA Navy Vetern mom signing out. until we met again