the support group i belonged too

finally i updated this blog so i could add links along the side and such. when i first began this blog awhile back you couldnt do that or if you could i had no clue how.
that was during the time the bagdad blogger was the hot deal and i actually was busy reading his blog of what it was like for a private citizen in bagdad to go through the war.
at the same time i ran across alot of blogs done by our own military soldiers those kept going while they were in the service but once they got out poof gone.
anyway.
during that time i began to blog . not alot but i blogged.
i also ran into one of the best support groups on line any military mom would ever want to gett involved with and that is the military moms.net link located on the side here under links.
for me it was a place i could run to anytime day or night and just hang my emotions out and say ouch and others understood me totaly and backed me up. to them i was norrmal on a normal roller coster ride all of us understood but if you werent a military mom well or a family member of one well it was a tough call for the understanding department.
so i lived there day and night. i remember one thanksgiving my hubby was working and i went in cause i was here at home alone. and i spent the day reading every post there was and posting something to each one. just for something to do and for some kind of connection to the outside world that day.
being a military mom and belonging to a group of people that were military moms helped me feel like i was normal and connected .
and yes during the war i watched as other moms burried their sons and daugthers on the board there and we held prayer services for each one.
i also watched as babies were born to our inlisted as well as their families.
and i watched as we got news of those who were wounded and whoses families were in need of alot of prayers as they traveled to germany to see their soldier.
and i watched as we celebrated the arrival on US soil of those returning home unharmed .
there is a deep bond that goes with being a military mom one all of us that are or have been can be very proud of.
in fact i am a mother now of a navy vet.
i remember when that happened . and i thought ok wow now i am done and i can leave or i should at least leave the military moms. so i did just that.
only to find that wasnt going to happen none to soon. i found out there were people out there hunted for my posts and read them all the time. and wanted to hear from me even if it was none military postings anymore.i was told i had a positive way of looking at anything.
well i got to say. that didnt come because of self. that came because of the military moms. it came to be during the time i was in there.
i had had enough of the crying all day and night for me that is. enough of the not feeling like i was living but sitting and waiting all day and night for the next shoe to fall so to speek. enough of the wondering and enough of the what ifs and your next and if if if .
not to say for one min this moms heart wasnt concerned or worried at all. but i figured out i didnt have to live with the deep stuff of horror.
so i began one day with crissy aka the princess of the tissues or some such posting where i began to talk about things like i had a bad cold and felt like i was supporting the tissue companies not just with that cold but all the tears i shed just being a mom. and i kept posting in a light hummorus way. talking about my everyday problems and then talking about the good things that happened that day even if it was something tiny . but i hung onto the tiny positive things like so many life preservers thrown over board to me.
i talked about my adventures with the grand kids yea for grandkids . they were my real life heros during the time my son was in the navy. because i was busy taking care of them as a day care provider and we went on so many adventures because of it all that i had no choice but to keep my chin up.
i will post more about being a military mom and what it was like for me. again. but for now its time for this gal to have am coffee with her vietnam vetern hubby before he leaves again today and goes back to work at the local mine here out of town for 4 more weeks. and wouldnt you know his cell phone dont work out there grrrrrrrr. so its limited phone calls again and at odd hours. thank god i have a cell phone he can reach me anywhere i am anytime .
hugs and love and tons of prayers from me crissy aka (Crissy Ira's mom) in alaska